To Caroline

You’re sure to have had another busy day and I hope it was as fun as yesterday…would have loved to have seen the killing of the lamp….it sound so funny, I can just imagine this being performed by your group on stage :)
Of course you must be with the theatre group on Wednesday, apart from keeping your commitment to your friends, it’s not for me to just turn up and disrupt your plans…I’m the one who has to fit in. Any way I’m looking forward to see you perform with the group, and wouldn’t dare read a book, how rude would that be!
Great if you can fix a ride to the airport, so I catch my plane.

I missed you so much last night and today. I went out with Josip and his friend Elis and two other guys. We had quite a night and ended up in a club and dancing till 4 in the morning! But I wanted to dance with you…not the other people on the dance floor...I wanted my girl by me, close to me, and there to kiss when the slow dance came along at the end.
Today I was a bit hung-over and tired. I went for a walk in the park and could only think of you. It was so beautiful, the trees turning yellow and gold in the sun…and again I wanted to be next to you and seeing this together with you. I feel I’m wanting you more and more…Call me soon

Family visitors

My sister and her family have been here in Sweden staying with me from Saturday to Wednesday this week. It was a long time since she was last here in Sweden and it’s been good having them here. Three of their children were with them, so the flat was very full, but we all get on so it wasn’t a problem. It’s nice to see my girls getting on so well with their cousins, despite the fact that they don’t see so much of them. It’s as if they’ve lived next door all the time. They have similar interests and chat about music, ipods, xbox games and school…no problems at all. We’ve been to Skansen with them and they visited several museums and have managed to get around town on their own. Had the chance to talk to my sister about lots of stuff and it seems we are still getting on well, us two…and that feels good. She was happy to hear I have a new girl friend and is looking forward to meeting Caro if we go to England. Now I’ve dropped them all off at the bus station, for their connection to the airport, and when I get home it seems quiet in the flat for the first time in a week and even the girls notice that too.

Thursday - Good and Bad

Hmmm…some good and some bad thoughts at the end of this Thursday

Bad - My boss has been asked to leave the company and that makes me feel sad and unsure about the future at TagVille. I get on very well with him and will miss working together with him.

Good - It’s Thursday and that means its Friday tomorrow, and after a very busy stressy week, I need the weekend to arrive soon.

Bad – The day was full of difficult meetings with staff and customer contacts and I’m getting behind with my work load, especially with all this company politics to deal with.

Good - I had a relaxing evening playing some pool with my friend Aaron and we had a good chat about girls, life and stuff, and I won the most games.

Bad – I don’t have my girl lying in my bed waiting for me to come to bed and satisfy her desires.

Good - Caro has updated her Blog and sent me a lovely e-mail, and now I have sweet thoughts of her in my mind when I go to bed…and I know she’s thinking of me too and that makes the distance between us seem less :)

Now 3 months

Caro reminded me today that’s its now 3 months to-the-day since we met in Greece…its hard to believe that we’ve been able to do so much together in such a short space of time. And get to know each other so well…despite the fact that we actually live in different countries!

We’ve just got to the end of 10 fantastic days together here in Stockholm, the first time we’ve been together for longer than a long weekend, and it was great. This girl is lovely in so many ways and I love her being in my life and being part of hers too. The week has been filled with so many great moments and experiences together, some big and some small, I’m not sure I can remember them all for my blog…I shall try to put some of them into writing…as I know we both benefit from this blog. And I know that just writing them down makes me feel closer to her…and as I’m missing her already and she only flew back to Köln on Sunday evening and now it’s Monday, I know this will help.

Sandhamn

In the first few days that Caro is staying with me, she has the chance to meet my two daughters H&E for the first time. They are so grown up and the first evening together look as if it’s easy for them to manage. I can see Caro working hard to understand their English at times and get used to their quick chatting at the dinner table. On Saturday we all go to IKEA and do some shopping for stuff for my flat. It seems to work out quite well and we help prepare dinner together and then play a game of Yatzi afterwards. I think we have been able to clear this hurdle without any big problems.

On the Sunday morning, Caro and I set off for the trip I have planned to the archipelago off the coast of Stockholm. Caro looks great and excited to be getting away on my surprise trip. We take the car to Stavsnäs and then a ferry out to Sandön and Sandhamn, the island that we are to stay on. We’re lucky with the weather and the skys clear on this autumn day as the ferry stops at some small islands on the way. Sandhamn is very beautiful and we admire the view as the ferry docks in this cosy little harbour. We walk over to the hotel where I have booked our room for the night on this little island, dump our bags and take a walk in the sun. The island is small and mainly covered in woods, which are filled with all the Swedish treasures, such as lingonberry’s and mushrooms of every size and type. We reach the small beach at the end of the island and sit in the sun and just enjoy the beauty of this place and our own warm embraces.

When we get back to the hotel, we’re pleased with our room and the view of the harbour. We take advantage of everything the hotel has to offer…
the large indoor pool and hot tub, the restaurant, the room, the bed…

This was a fantastic weekend trip in every way…and one we will both surly remember for ever.

3 days to go

During the past week I have had some really good e-mail and msm exchanges with Caro and we Skyped for some time on Sunday. It’s so good to hear her voice and it makes me feel much closer to her.

We’ve been discussing several topics, including her visit to Stockholm, which is now only 3 days away. She’s coming for 10 days, so we will have lots of time to relax and be our selves. This will be the first time she meets my two girls, H&E, and I’ve been trying to anticipate her reaction to this first meeting. We’ve discussed this during the week and when I was last in Köln. I’m sure they will like her and they are very social and easy to get along with. Caro is also working with children, so this situation shouldn’t be too unusual for her. Anyway I’m planning some casual everyday things for us to do together, so I hope we are all able to relax and they can get to know each other.

I have also planned a small surprise trip for me and Caro at the weekend. I think I need to do things like this, as Caro is obviously a planning and organising person. I want our relationship to be balanced in some way, so it’s not always her that’s fixings things. I’ve perhaps been a bit lazy with this sort of thing in my last relationship and know girls appreciate it when their men also fix things.

Now I only have to count down the days….3 to go… cant wait to have her by my side again…. to let her meet some of my friends and relax together in our own time.

Welcome to Stockholm Caroline :)

A Saturday to remember

When I wake up the next day lying next to this angle of a girl, I can only think and wonder how lucky I am to be in this heavenly situation, this warm embrace from a feline form wrapped along my body from behind, caressing me into a waking state. This is to become a day to remember, for many reasons.
Its time to get up as were helping one of her best friends move into her new flat nearby. We take her bike and I remember it was a long time ago I gave a girl a lift on the packet holder of a bicycle…that’s funny, and I’m smiling to my self in the shop windows as we ride by, thinks this was a childish feeling. And I like it.
The move goes quite quick as these not too much and were 6 or 7 helping. The flats nice and it reminds me more of a flat in England than Sweden which surprises me. Its good meet and chat to these Germans who are very social and speak English very easily to me…making me feel involved and welcome.
We do some shopping for food and make a plan for the evening with a meal. But when we decide to take a short rest to catch up on some sleep. After we have cooked and eaten, we ride over to a bar/club and watch a live jazz band play. It’s a good band and we have fun chatting and making up stories about the band members.

It’s good to be back in Köln

Having been apart from each other for 3 weeks I have a big need to meet this fantastic girl in Köln as soon as possible. I’m on the plane from Berlin to Köln and thinking of her again. I doze off as I’m so tired. It’s been a busy week at the exhibition in Berlin and several late nights and drinks have deprived me of sleep. I’m hoping this won’t spoil my weekend with Caroline. Almost there and as usual, I only have to play back one of my favourite moments in my mind of being with her... (see Blog entry 31 Aug 2006) and I’m longing for her again as the plane lands and I’m sending a text to her to say the plane has landed. Then soon were seeing each other again in the terminal and the hugs and sensual kisses confirm were both longing for each other. We take a quick taxi ride back to her flat and Caro’s telling me all about her school trip with a class of 11 year olds. Back at her place, she’s fixing me a delicious light supper and again I’m reminded she’s good a preparing food I like.
Then to bed and love and then sleeping…together again :-)

In Berlin

So as you will see in this picture, part of my job involves taking part in trade shows around the world to promote the company I work for. I have been in Berlin this week attending the International Rail Exhibition. We share a stand with 5 other companies from Sweden, which is a very good solution for us and ensures were part of a large on stand together.
I’m here with my boss and with two colleagues Tess and Anre. It’s been a very busy week and quite hard work, but we’ve had good fun too. Much of the day is spent talking to customers and partners and in the evenings we have been out in Berlin. I think I am missing between 2 and 4 hours of sleep each night and now its Friday I can feel this. Last night we went to the Hacherscher Markt in Berlin, which is a nice area and has lots of places to eat and drink. We ate outside then went on to some bars in the surrounding district.
Now I’m looking forward to catching the flight to Köln for the weekend and seeing Caro again.

Your just great...

You’re just great, I loved your 2 new blog entries. This me being away thing is hard for you, I can see that and as you say, we have to talk about this so you understand it, it’s a part of being together with me and we can deal with it, together, I’m sure. This reminds me, that you have written “we have to talk about this” several times over the past weeks. I hope we will find the time and that we remember all these points. Most of them are things we can best discuss face to face. None of them are issues in my mind and I don’t think they are in yours either, so we shall take them one at a time as we find time together, do you agree?
I just loved your list, what a fab thing to think of. Lots for us to look forward to next weekend ;-)

In New York anyway…

…well it sound ludicrous but I’m in New York anyway! I tried not to be here, as I have to be in Berlin all next week and planned to use the weekend to wind down and shake off the 6 hour difference. But my flight from Pittsburgh was delayed, big time. I was sitting on the small plane, waiting for its slot to take-off from Pittsburgh to New York. I quickly fell asleep, then waking to the jolt of the plane moving, I thought we had landed, but we hadn’t even taken off, we were moving back to the terminal to re-fuel! When we finally got in the air, the flight was further delayed by air traffic control in Newark and we eventually landed more than 2 hours late, so I missed me connection to Stockholm. These things happen… so I’m in New York again and I’d be the first to admit, there are worse places you could be delayed :)
So Jonas got his way and I spent Friday night with him going out in central Manhattan. We went to a bar for a beer, then to another in Times Square, then to the West Side to a restaurant in Hells Kitchen, finally another drink on the way back to Sven and Sharon’s apartment, where we were staying. The next day we all went to a traditional New York diner for brunch with Sharon’s dad and some of their friends. It’s humid and the sun is out, so we went for a walk in Central Park, which is just a few blocks from their place.

I really like New York; it’s got loads of character. It looks so impressive with its towering skyline, neon signs and yellow cabs. After all the films you’ve seen, every detail you expect it to have is there, the smoking street grates, laddered fire escapes clinging to brick apartment fronts, corner flower shops filled with colour, Italian delicatessen stores, bustling side walks, its all there for real.
I leave on Saturday evening and once again I’m very grateful for my job which takes me to these places and for the friends I’ve made in these interesting places. I’m just a little sad I can’t share more of this time with this special girl in my life. It would be just great to have shared this week’s experiences together with Caroline, I’m sure she would have enjoyed it too. I hope we can travel together soon and I’m thinking of her and how we have so much in front of us to look forward to and experience together. I’m really looking forward to that :)

Outings in Pittsburgh

Even though I’m kept busy with work, I find time to do some other things while in the USA this week. I take the chance to do some shopping at one of the local shopping centres. It’s generally much cheaper in the US and I buy stuff like Chinos, a T-shirt and a pair of Boots, which are all basically half the price compared with Sweden. Last night we were out in Pittsburgh with a customer.
We ate at the Pittsburgh Hard Rock Cafe, which was OK but not the best Hard Rock I’ve been to. The barbeque ribs were tasty and we drank local draft ale. Beginning to tire of our week of meat meals, Jonas and I set out to find something different to eat this evening. We checked out the cinema on our way out, but there was nothing on we wanted to see. I ask a local if there was a bowling alley near by and he gave us directions to a place he knew. We found a very suspect looking Chinese restaurant next to the bowling alley, but we decide to brave it as it was the only place to eat and we wanted to eat something different. We ordered their set menu and when the food arrived, we were very surprised to find it was really good. The owner came with each dish and explained what it was for us; even the cook comes out to check we were enjoying it. The whole meal only costs us 20 dollars each and was great value. We went down into the bowling alley and find out it’s a real old place from the 40’s with some very interesting individuals who look like they might have been working there since it opened. We played 3 games and we had to change lanes 2 times because the old machines were breaking down all the time and an old man had to come and fix them. We had a real good laugh bowling and are happy we braved this less than glamorous location which provided us with a real unusual American experience.

9/11 Flight

9/11 was a truly shocking event and this date is therefore unforgettable for most of us. Now 5 years on and on the very same day, I’m sitting on a plane on my way to New York and then on to Pittsburgh on a business trip. Some of my friends and family were concerned about me being on this flight, as was my girlfriend Caroline. As the plane is less than half full, I suspect that others have chosen not to fly on this day. I really don’t worry about these things and am not concerned. I spend so much time flying and have stopped thinking about accidents with planes a long time ago. But I do respect that others are worried and I hope that everyone who knows me is not too stressed about this flight.
We have just flown over Greenland, which for once was not covered in cloud and looked fantastic. The coast line was mountainous and full of glaciers twisting down into the clear blue sea, which was full of icebergs. Were at an altitude of 12,000 metres, travelling at 886 km/h and its minus 48 deg.C outside. The wireless internet connection is fine and I’m just mailing this message to some friends now.

My great girls

I’ve had a good week with Hannah and Emma at home and we’ve managed to spend some time together eating together some evenings and talking about our lives and what were doing. There growing up…or are grown up now! I’m pleased they can talk to me about their lives, their friends and boyfriends. I have tried hard not to be a disaster dad who doesn’t understand his children and with this week in mind, I’m sort of thinking I managed to get this right with them. I want to keep in touch with my children all through their lives and I hope that even when they move away, that they will always be able to call or come home to tell me about the bad or good times their experiencing.

Work has been tough this week with lots of pressure and problems and I need to try and relax this weekend. I’m off to the US on business on Monday for a week and I will be in Berlin all the following week at an exhibition. After that I will fly on to Köln for the weekend with Caroline and as usual I find myself very much looking forward to that. In fact I can hardly wait to see her eyes and embrace her in my arms again.

Sunday Heaven

I think I got coffee in bed again on Sunday…what could I possibly have done to deserve this…. We sit and chat in bed again and it’s so great that we seem to be able to talk about everything in such an uninhibited way. This girl is doing me so…much…good…I feel younger and refreshed by her smile, and her youth. We talk about her friends and I know they mean a lot to her and her to them too. You can see this from this sms that Tatjana sent me back on Saturday “it will be great to meet the man who makes this wonderful woman Caro fell so happy”. I hope I can live up to their expectations!

We take a walk around the area where she lives in Köln and were discussing our trips to see each other over the coming months and she asks about Christmas. I am a little surprised, but it will be great if we can arrange to see each other then too. On the way back to her flat we buy some cakes and have a snack before we have leave for the airport together. When I’ve checked in my bag, we sit and chat and photo each other in the airport terminal while we wait as long as possible before I have to leave. We decide we should start a series of airport photos of each other, so here is one of them. Were talking about our relationship and the risks involved because of the distance, culture and language, but we have so much going between us, I can only be optimistic and I hope that despite my warnings to Caro, that she believes my love and can also continue to be optimistic and make this work out for us.